SORRY!! DAD IS NOT (longer) A 'G'

I wish you could understand that
I want to give you everything that I lacked
From love and education to a roof over my head
Everything that I think is essential for you
Even if tough times come, dad will provide for you

I’m sorry for not being a G
Sorry if our home is filled with harmony
Sorry for bringing you up with a mum and a dad
Sorry if you can not showoff at school all of that

And you feel displaced at school
Your mates’ fathers are in prison and you think that’s cool
Sorry for deciding to give up
The hustling, the selling and all that crap
I wish you could understand that
ain’t life to sell crack

And I want you to be as far as I can manage from all that
I only want to give you what I did not had
My dad drunk himself to death, of overdose died my step dad
For some years I was the only male in my family
That wasn’t locked up
The hustling was inherited, no one to give me an slap
Burned finger tips
Burned foil and tea spoons
Foundation of our home were hashish bricks
Ashes became our future, wind blew them soon
And that’s the way I grew up
Nothing to lose, no light at the end of the path

But that’s the past, and past is a learnt lesson
Now is today, to much to loose, I will not step in prison
I’m there went you come back from school
You would be fine if you follow just this rule
‘Enjoy yourself, and listen to those surrounding you
Take advantages of the situation
You will make it through
That’s the only truth’

Pull your trousers up; keep up your dignity
Once you loose this, you will be at the edge of vulgarity
They make you believe that we’re a prehistoric race
They make you believe that without them we wouldn’t exist
Persist and self-educate yourself, resist and ignore the mist ‘

They want you to loose your self-esteem and dignity
The only difference between the animal kingdom and humanity
And they know that perfectly
That’s why when Bashy released black boys
Labeled him as racist and made so much noise
Because they don’t want black boys
To become intelligent black men, you see

Daddy is not longer a G
Sorry if that’s what you wanted me to be
I’ve so much right now to loose,
I’ve so much to love
I wish you could understand what’s the cost

Black boys that gonna become black men
Growing up with fake dreams, growing up anyhow
Schools are dismissed to take control
The neighborhood seems to be always covered by a cloud
And our almighty seems to don’t hear our call
Drugs and misery flooded our community
Our people doesn’t hold the reins of their own destiny
And our streets are drowning in agony

That’s why dad is not longer a G
I decided to get control of my own destiny
I was the looser, the hustler and the underdog
I declined to be defeated for those on top
You brought the light to my life
Giving me a reason to leave hell and rise

It breaks my heart when you chose 50 cent over me (LOL)
And when you think that dad is not cool because is not a G
I wish you could understand
That to wake up everyday at 6 it takes a man
It’s easy to hustle and believe you don’t gonna last
But it’s difficult to work hard, and ignore the mass

Everything you have, is provided just for you
Live your life to the max, enjoy, discover, be
Family will always stick together like glue
Life is too short to commit the same mistakes as me

Sorry if you don’t gonna be one of those boys
Sorry if our home is filled with joy
Sorry if dad is not longer a G
I’m sorry if you’re ashamed that at home everything is set perfectly
I’m sorry that our home is full of love, happiness and harmony
Sorry for not giving you any excuses to become a G

God’s Sun ©